Life has never been better…truly
But what comes next?
What will I do after transition? What if it becomes an end in itself, and that is a mistake. I seem to spend most of my life thinking about it, doing it, planning the next stage. That is all fine in some ways but really transition is just a new set of clothes…it is not an end in itself. OK more than a new set of clothes but you can see what I am hinting at I hope.
One thing is sure, during transition everything in my life is going to change. Planning ahead is the only way.
Is it actually possible to plan for something you have no idea how it will turn out? Old friends and family members are already starting to fall like winter leaves. Most through lack of contact or social distance. We just don’t fit together like we once did.
I have some new friends since I began my new life…but what do they want of me and are these friendships just transitional too. It may seem a strange question to ask but, why am I doing all this?
For me it’s the dysphoria, I can’t live with a male body anymore. Also I want to express my emotions, feelings and needs honestly…and that is as a woman…which is what I am. And then what?
It is fair to say there aren’t so many trans women out there and society isn’t exactly over keen on us. Where do we fit in?
It is always going to be hard to be trans. There is always going to be stigma and prejudice, suspicion and even outright resentment. That’s a fact, like it or not. So how to live the dream once I have achieved my physical and mental transition?
Exactly what is my dream?
So far it has felt like running out of my burning house, the only vital thing is to get out alive. Once outside though, stood in a nightshirt with everything I own burning behind me…what do I do then?
How do I start to build my new life…the life as the transformed me.
I need a plan, something to work toward when I leave the burning house.
I have done this before, and to be fair I think it is going to make a huge difference again. In my working life I help people build their future, discover themselves and achieve their goals. Self development and improvement. This is an extract from my commercial web site that illustrates what I mean. Written in 2021:
